soy = sad + joy
happy because I succed encounter at smansa depok. my parents proud of me. yeah you're welcome mom and dad :)
and sad idk to explain this, but I'm just sad. extremely sad. evertime I think about that, I'm sad.
I feel like I don't have reason to live happily again. in fact, I'm just pretending happy everyday. Ok sometimes I'm feeling happy. But never as happy as before...........oh god this really freaking me out!!!!!!
If I'm talking this on science side, sad is dominant to happy.
So this is how my cromosom looks like =
happy because I succed encounter at smansa depok. my parents proud of me. yeah you're welcome mom and dad :)
and sad idk to explain this, but I'm just sad. extremely sad. evertime I think about that, I'm sad.
I feel like I don't have reason to live happily again. in fact, I'm just pretending happy everyday. Ok sometimes I'm feeling happy. But never as happy as before...........oh god this really freaking me out!!!!!!
If I'm talking this on science side, sad is dominant to happy.
So this is how my cromosom looks like =
SShh
s=sad h=happy
I never talked about this to anyone. I'm that type of person that keeps her feeling alone.
The worst part is... I don't know why I'm feeling sad. I've felt this feeling for a long times. a couple months......or maybe years?
why people keep make me to be a different person????
I wanna be the original of me!!!
I can't be my true self in front of people. that's HURTS ALOT.
I don't know what my passion really is
I don't know what to do with my life
Should I just go to school,study,eat,take a bath,sleep and round and round and round?!
and pretending to be happy everyday. pretending to have a good chat with friend. pretending to study but hide handphone behind my book.
everyone looks scary. everyone looks so strange................
:) *fake smiles*